Sunday, May 23, 2010

Shit.


I had this dream last night. You were in it. We were in love again and all that shit. I don't know how to feel about it. I miss you, honestly, but I can't help but to resent you for your mistakes.

In June, I am going to drive 90 miles to see you. Is it going to be worth it? Or is it going to be the same old shit? I'm really thinking it's a bad idea. I need this, I think. I just need to see if there is still anything between us.

I feel like this is a chapter that didn't end before moving onto the next. What should I do? I'm just going for it. Whatever happens, happens.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

I'm doin' me.




So, I love Drake so much. This song is catchy as hell. Drake as an artist drips creativity and talent. He's got it going for him. He's only 23 and already being called the legend.....


This song is called Over. This is the beginning to the song.

"""I know way too many people here right now
That I didn’t know last year, who the fuck are y’all?
I swear it feels like the last few nights
We been everywhere and back
But I just can’t remember it all

What am I doin’? What am I doin’?
Oh, yeah, that’s right, I’m doin’ me
I’m doin me
I’m livin’ life right now, mayne

And this what I’ma do ’til it’s over
‘Til it’s over
But it’s far from over….."""
In my opinion, the first line is relating to fame and how everyone wants to be associated with you because of your name, clique, and money.
I get that.
In the same way, sometimes I just wake up in the morning and think "what the fuck?"
It just seems like people keep entering and exiting my life on a day to day basis.
Why can't shit just stay stable? You know?

Life is moving so fast. I'm trying to take it all in.


Drake asks himself "What am I doing?"
His response is "I'm doin' me."
This is my problem. I put everyone in front of me. I do what I want to do last.
I care about others before myself. It's not a bad thing, it's just better in moderation.
So, now, I'm doing me. I don't care about others for the time people. I just need to focus on myself; my faith, my morals, my values, my relationships, my health, and my future.

Bandwagons full. Please catch another.