What would you do if you wanted to be friends with someone who spoke no English?

Everyone speaks body language.
Holla.


So, lately I've been having a huge crush on Macaulay Culkin. I find him so interesting to look at, probably because he's everything I'm not into. I usually find brown hair, brown eyes attractive. Anyways, he had such a weird childhood. Look into it. I really want to read his book but no libraries have it. I don't want to buy it unless it's really good.Okay. That's all.

Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter.

What would you do if you found a magic wand?

Call Micheal and tell him.
Then do stuff that harry potter does.

What would you do if you had four math problems marked wrong that were right?

I would show the teacher and have her fix the problems.

What would you do if a friend comes to your house and his/her mom doesn't know he's/she's there?

That question was completely stupid.



I had the worst day ever today.
I ended up balling my eyes out to a couple people.
I felt so dumb to be crying at work, but after I was done, I was over it.
Sometimes you need a really good cry every once and a while.

I just have so much stress and anxiety.
I don't know how to handle it.
I just bottle it up.
I should probably go see a therapist or something.


I'm trying to find information on online schooling.
I'm already done with all the shit that goes along with high school.


My friend is supposed to come home in a couple of weeks.
I'm excited.

What would you do if an hour before the party you remember you don't have a gift?

Isn't that what gift cards are for?




That's my best friend. She so beautiful. I'm so proud of how her pictures turned out.

My contacts feel weird.

Have you ever taken a shower with anyone before?
Not naked, :)

You just drank 52 shots, what would you be doing?
I don't drink. I'm making fun of the person who just drank 52 shots.

Are you single/..​taken/..​crushing?
Hung up, the ball is in their court.

Last person you talked to on the phone?
Melanie about these situations.

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
Sociology.

Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?
I cried in front of them a lot. The last time I saw them I was crying.

Have you ever laughed at something that wasn't meant to be funny?
Yes, oops.

Anything good happening tomorrow?
Not sure, possibly.

Want something you can't have?
Always, more particularly, someone.

Would your parents be mad if you came home drunk?
I don't drink.

Where is the last person you kissed?
His apartment? I don't know.

Who were you with last night?
My Family

Have you ever had four people of the opposite sex have a crush on you at one time?
No one crushes on me.

Do you think you have made anyone happy recently?
I hope.

Do you open up to people easily?
No, I don't trust anyone.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with N?
One of my boyfriends.

Are you currently frustrated with anyone or anything?
Yes. Multiple people, including myself.

Is your room ever clean?
When I have time to clean it, yes. It's really organized.

Do you like to cuddle?
No.

Do you cry easily?
I try not to. It's something I don't do in front of people often. But, I usually cry right before I go to sleep. Charming, right?

Ever cried while on the phone with someone?
Yes, Seth Steele. I call him at weird hours of the night and tell him all my problems while he tells me everything is going to be okay. He is a really good friend.

Do you take walks often?
Yes, I like to break my new shoes in.

what was the last thing you drank?
Water.

Have you ever broken anyone's heart?
No.

Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
Sober.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
I tend to be serious with my relationships,

Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
Yes, while watching step brothers.

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
Yes.

Would you rather drink coffee or tea?
Sweet tea from McDonald's.

Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on your bed?
I really wish you'd stop asking questions about this person.

Have you ever gone camping?
Yes.

Do you get nervous with public speaking?
I have stage fright.

Do you curse in front of your parents?
Yes.

Do you get in trouble?
No.

Do you want to grow old with someone or be single forever?
I don't want to be a crazy cat lady.

Wearing any bracelets?
Kody and I's best friend lion bracelet, and JAGK.

What are you wearing right now?
Hugh Heffner pajamas.

Do you want to start over with anyone?
Yes.

Ready for winter to come?
Yes.

What's your favorite kind of candy?
It depends.

Do you swear a lot?
Unfortunately.

What does most of your money go toward?
Gas.

Are you hungry?
No.

Have you ever seen a dead body?
At funerals.

How long do you think you will live?
Not much longer.

What was the first thing you did this morning?
Put in my contacts.

Does anything hurt on you right now?
Back pain.

What would you do if someone told you a joke that you don't think is funny?

I have a horrible sense of humor.
You don't make me laugh.

What would you do if your new shoes felt fine in the store but now they are hurting?

This happens to me a lot actually. You have to break them in. For the most part, it isn't heels that do this to me. It's those sneaky flats that look comfortable but hurt like a bitch. How do you girls walk in those? I have a high arch in my foot. Those shoes don't do me any justice. I have to be taller than I really am.

Okay, enough rambling.
I have to go finish my drawing homework.
I'm so proud of the eye I drew!

What would you do if someone said you did something wrong and you didn't?

I would take them to court.

I've been so sick this past week and I've convinced myself I'm dying. I swear I'm the biggest Hypochondriac. I can't help it though, my mom made me this way. I'm always rubbing hand sanitizer all over me. The thought of other people's germs grosses me out. Hopefully I will be going to this specialist to have my throat, nose, and ears looked at. Then from there I'm going to try and get my tonsils out. Everyone talks about how painful of a procedure it is. It kind of makes me nervous because I've never really had anything major done. I guess they do it with lasers now. I'm also going to have my nose looked at. I suppose they will take an x-ray and see how my nose healed from the break. I've got my fingers crossed that it's not to bad. I really don't want to have to get a nose job or something crazy in the future. I'm going to end this here since I can't breath and I have to wake up early. Goodnight,Loves.

No Need For A Title.

My whole life I've been so different from everyone else.
Something that I'd never really been able put my finger on until a couple of years ago.
I don't feel the need to justify any of that on here.

So, when I was fourteen years old, I met someone. That someone eventually changed my life completely. They introduced me to so many things and opened my mind to so many thoughts and feelings I've never had. Once I thought I had figured everything out, for the most part, he talked to me about the laws of attraction. That changed everything. If you don't know much about it, look it up. It's too complicated for me to explain here. I am really into it and a true believer.

I always have this crazy thoughts about the soul/spirit/energy. I believe that your body is nothing but a home for the time being, that you choose to be here. So, if your energy has always existed, other energies have probably always been around you. I wasn't sure if I believed in soul mates a couple of years ago. I am a firm believer now. Have you ever met someone and you just click right away? It's kind of like that except more complex.

When I was fourteen years old, I met my soul mate for the first time. I didn't know it at the time and it wasn't apparent until we were together months later. Although we had this crazy connection, I hadn't opened myself up to that kind of energy yet. That first time I met him, I remember this vibe I got from him. I can't describe it. Honestly, he was so kind and he made such an impression on me. I remember being so happy to be around him, but after I went home, I experienced a feeling I have never felt ever. Empty. My whole life up until then was so weird. I could never figure out why certain things happened to me. I had lived up until that point believing I was whole. This person just waltzed into my life and suddenly this piece of me I wasn't aware was missing, was gone.

We've become very close since we've met. Although there is distance between us, we find time and ways to see each other.

Now, you're probably wondering, "If you're soul mates, why aren't you together?"
It's complicated.
He has a significant other.
When I picture my life, and the future, I always see us together.
When I think about getting married and having kids, it's him.
At least I used to.
I know this is a person I have been with in past lives.
I would love to be with them like that.
It's the best feeling in the universe to be with him.
I love his voice.
I love being in his arms.
I love him, in a different kind of way.
It's unconditional.
No matter what I do I always will.
Which brings me to my next point.

I know very little about my past.
I just know that this specific energy has always been around me.
Although I may have been with them in past lives, I don't want to be with him in this one.
I've been thinking about this so much lately.
It's really hard to even type this.
I can't find the right words.
But here it goes.
I know that he is my soul mate, in the past, present, and future.
I cannot change that and I'm completely okay with that.
I feel that people live their whole lives not ever meeting their soul mates.
I'm happy to just have met them.
I know we are going to be with other people and I understand that.

My point is that they're always going to be in the back of my mind, but I'm over it.

I can, have, and will be happy with other people.
It's not settling, I promise.
I choose to be with them.
They make me equally happy with all of their unique talents and charming spirits.
I can love other people.

Two months ago I was with someone I really cared about.
I started to see my future with them, not my soul mate.
It honestly freaked me out.
But, just as I was coming to terms, they let me down.
I have never been so hurt.
But I am strong and independent.
You'd think this would make me weak and run back to my soul mate, but it's made me resent them.
It's become more of a burden than a blessing.

I don't know where I'm going with this.
But if you read this, maybe you'll understand now.
If this is still under your favorites, give me a sign.

What would you do if you promised to feed your pet and you didn't?

That would never happen considering Scout begs for food all the time.

What a cutie, right?




I work tomorrow 12:30 till 6:30.
Someone bring me a McDonald's breakfast sandwich.




Better blog then, hopefully.
I have this crazy thought brewing.

What would you do if you were invited to two parties on the same day?

I'm never, ever invited to parties.
Sometimes when I'm at work, some of my dude friends invite me along.
I guess that contradicts my first statement.
I'm just a really awkward person.
I don't drink. I don't do drugs.
I don't know how to dance.
So, yeah.
Plus, I'm really shy.

I'm going to try and update this every day/night.
I know I've said it before, but I promise to stick with it.
I want you all inside my head.



I just started school this week.
It sucks not having anyone you care about there, or even in your classes for that matter.
But, I am so proud of everyone going out and becoming something.
I keep getting the best myspace instant messages from people.
They make me so happy.
I miss all of my friends in the class of 09, holla.



Is it too early to be thinking about what I want for Christmas?

What would you do if you dropped the cookie jar and it broke?

Haha, shit. I'd feel bad I guess. We don't have a cookie jar.
My mom used to be a weirdo and collect cookie jars. Then we had these crazy neighbors with 3 kids that were all really mean. Their parents never watched them. So, one day they came over and the youngest broke one of my mom's cookie jars. She probably shit her pants because they were super old and worth a lot of money. So, the moral of the story is, don't break my mom's cookie jars or she'll kill you.


I start school tomorrow. Joy.

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What would you do if you were at home and your homework was at school?

That would suck. I guess I would go back to school and get it.


I got the weirdest phone call the other night. It was from a number I didn't know.
It ended up being this weird dude calling to tell me that even though he had a girlfriend that I was the most amazing girl ever and that he had never felt the way he felt about me. Wtf, right?

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You see, I thought we were a team, you and I.
I thought we were the only ones that mattered.
I hope you know I was fighting for you, not against you.
But, shit, you always have to make me the bad guy.
Whatever.
If you're not willing to fight for me, then you aren't worth a minute of my time.

Taking Back Sunday

For the past couple of years, I've listened to Taking Back Sunday. One of my young loves got me into them, and I have loved them ever since. Recently, they released a new album following up on 2006's Louder Now. Since then a lot of things have changed with the band, including the departure of guitarist of Fred Mascherino. Fred now has his own solo project, The Color Fred, and since has been replaced with Matthew Fazzi. So, when Taking Back Sunday announced the date of their appropriately titled release, New Again, I added to my list of stuff to check out. I'm huge skeptic and I'll be the first to admit my curiosity got the best of me. It seems like the long hiatus left us in the dark and suddenly they are popping up everywhere. Everyone knows that Taking Back Sunday have always been a band with a lot of baggage, and no one seems to stick around long. Then my alternative press subscription arrived with them on the cover. I read the article and was disappointed to find that the article did not focus on the band's new album, but rather frontman Adam Lazzara's drama. The article also went into Lazzara's split from his fiance, the woman he cheated with, his wife, his child, his weight gain, and his jealousy of Fred. He continued to brag about his songwriting and how it had grown so much. He basically made himself look stupid. I bought the album and quickly looked through the artwork to discover no lyrics where included, which is lame. Since Fred has left, the dynamic, split vocals are now left for Lazzara alone. This record is a little harder than past records. The lyrics are still cliche and even a little immature. They all kind of sound alike and there are no standout tracks. The album stabs at Fred and also Lazzara's ex fiance. I've tried to keep this ranting about the music, not the personal lives. It seems as Lazzara traded his melodic vocals for angry howls. It's just kind of bland. Overall, I'd give this a 2 out 5.

Have a different opinion? Let me know. I love hearing people's thoughts.