I'm going to eat mcdonald's breakfast.

yum

I'm tired.

Goodnight.

And it's started.

Let the race begin.

I'm sick.

My puppy is sick.
My phone is dead.

What do you like to do in your free time?

I like to spend time with my friends, read, shop, take pictures, catch up with shows I haven't watched, relax, breath, live my life.

So,I'm reading Diary by Chuck Palahniuk. I have this book mark. You see, it's a photo of us. When we were happy. When I loved you. And I keep looking at this picture, and I think about how things are. I wish they were better. But I resent you now. I can never forgive you for what you did. You were selfish and insecure, but why? You had to hurt one of the people closest to me. That's shitty. I know he's not upset about it. He's not like that. But you decided to fuck up an 8 year friendship because you two couldn't see eye to eye on things. You're loss.

I just keep looking at this picture. I keep thinking. When I picture my life, farther down the road, I see you. Always. It drives me crazy. Every time I look at you, it instantly comes back. These feelings. I wish they didn't. It's fatal attraction. You're no good for me. I haven't seen you in a while, but every time you update your status or upload a new picture, it's like it's made up for lost time.

I don't know where this is going.

I hate you.

What do you like most about yourself?

I like that I am independent.

My foot is asleep.
I've yet to clean my room or take a shower.
I'm hungry.
I'm going to go eat something and then sleep.

Macaulay Carson

Culkin.

I'm reading his novel Junior right now.
It's beyond brilliant.


I had a really weird dream last night.
J Woww from jersey shore was in it.

So much for going to bed early

Today was really good.
Honesty takes you farther than not being upfront with your emotions.
Know your priorities.
Get all the facts before coming to a conclusion.
And take everything you're told with a grain of salt.
Love yourself, so no one else has to.
Goodnight.

Hey.

I miss

listening to something corporate.

Maybe when I'm done with thinking,
Maybe you can think me whole.
Maybe when I'm done with endings
This can begin, this can begin
This can begin.

I went to the ENT today. That is a doctor who specializes in the ears, nose, and throat. My ears are dry, haha. That's why they have been bothering me. I took a hearing test. I almost perfect except for two things in my left ear. It makes me sad. The guy giving the test was really, really, really weird. The first part of the test included me repeating the words he would say. The first word he said was hotdog. I was cracking up.

Then we talked about my tonsils. I have two options, first, I can live with my issues, or two, get them removed.
I think I'm going to have them removed.
The only problem is you have to rest 7-10 days after.
I can't afford to miss 7-10 days of school.
And I don't want to waste my spring break.
So, I'm waiting until summer!

HELLO.

What pollutants do you think do the most damage and why?

Anything that is foreign to our water sources. That's just my opinion.

I went thrift shopping with my mom and my best friend today. I bought two necklaces, a pair of boots, a pair of heels, a jacket, a shirt, a pair of pants, a dress, and a 2nd grade reading level book. It was some babysitters chapter book. I read it in less that an hour. Melanie bought a vintage chair, a vintage suitcase, a game, a pair of jeans, two necklaces, and a dog toy. My mom just bought random shit, haha.

I'm trying to clean my room right now. It's not going so well. I own a lot of clothing.

I count my lucky stars
I thank God I've seen a smile like yours
But don't take it as a compliment
Just know it's straight from the heart
Now I'm driving around yeah to get lost
Just to find myself at any cost
If I hit the brakes my heart will stop
I'm taking comfort in the dark
I keep saying I know you're not mine
But I'm praying that you'll be alright
Because it's hard to let go of the ones you love
And I keep hoping for the best
As this wound heals in my chest
I know one day my best will be enough

Today.

I was driving.
My friend saw a dead deer.
I feel bad for dead deer.

I've kind of laid off with wearing earrings since I was feeling necklaces for a while. Now my earlobe is kind of infected since I've been wearing earrings. Not cool and gross.

It's 2:31 AM and I'm really hungry.
But, I'm too tired to eat.
So, I'm going to go read alternative press and sleep.
Goodnight.

Today.

I went shopping.
I bought stuff from express and abercrombie and fitch.
I got a sweater and a tank from express.
From Abercrombie and Fitch, I got a sweater and a pair of sweat pants.

Then I went to work.
I had fun there.
This guy I work with is going to do my hair.
I'm excited.

I love my life.

It's great. I tried out for my school play yesterday. I have stage fright really bad and my audition was really awful. I made it though. I really wanted a small part and that's exactly what I got! I have one line.

I really want to go shopping. Tomorrow I am going to hit up the mall. I hope there are some good sales. I know express has their box sale right now. I'm excited. The last I heard was that abercrombie and fitch were having a sale with 50 percent off or something. I try to avoid shopping there. They have cute stuff, but it's overpriced. A lot of my friends like H&M but I can never find anything I like there. So, I'm going to attempt to actually like there. It's just a known thing that I'm going to stop by forever 21. I love their shit but my mom hates it. Haha.

So, this Ke$ha girl, she's interesting. I'm not going to lie, her song tik tok is so catchy. One day my mom and I were driving, her song came and my mom was like,"If I was young and partied, I would love to dance to this song." I kind of don't like her ridiculous clothes and make up. But I love her hair. It's so messy. It's long and curly. She's got all these random braids and feathers in it. To me, it's like, hey I don't give a fuck. It's hippie meets crusty punk meets 80's high school girl meets heroin addict. I love it.


Today my mom called me and was telling me how everyone at her work was telling her how she looked like Portia de Rossi and that it was "all in the eyes". I can kind of see it. She is married to Ellen Degeneres. I think it's funny. Everyone thinks my mom and I look dead on. So, I guess I look like her. Hahahaha. I'm going to leave that open to interpretation. I don't see it. But I'm trying to watch jersey shore right now, so bye.

Hello.

You're s l i p p i n g s l i p p i n s l i p p i n g away.
I don't like it.

It's started.

American Idol is back on tv.
It's all one giant joke and yet my mother cons me into watching.
I already have my person picked out.
I can usually tell which people are assholes by their song choice.

I need to wash my hair.

I'm getting it cut tomorrow.

What things do you think are beautiful?

Macaulay Culkin.

"I wouldn't trade any of my experiences for anything in the world. I'm very happy with who I am, and where I've ended up and I wouldn't change one thing. Because if you change one thing in the past, everything else is different."

He's one of those people who kind of seem like a train wreck. I like that about him though. No ones perfect. Perfection is boring.


I think Macaulay Culkin was the cutest little kid ever. I really don't want to have kids and stuff, but if someone told me my kids would look like Macaulay Culkin, I'd have a kid so fast. I'm probably going to order his book off of amazon tomorrow, but for now, I'm going to sleep. Goodnight

2010

Hello. It's been a year and a half since I've seen you last.
I've stopped wearing our best friend bracelets.
Have you?
I seriously never thought things would turn out this way.
You were my rock.
You kept me sane.
You've been there for me, always.
But you promised me, and it's been broken.
A year and a half.
I think you're having a mid life crisis or something.
I just wish things could go back to how they used to be.
I just keep thinking that there's a pretty good chance that I might never see you again, ever.
I've learned to live my life without you, but the thought of never seeing you again.
Shit.
I don't think I can do it.
1.
2.
3.
I'm wishing, hoping, dreaming that I can see you soon.
Even later.
Sometime during this lifetime.
Don't let me down.

Today

was a good day.
I went to the mall.
Then I went to the movies.
I saw youth in revolt.
It was funny.


Then my long lost best friend Courtney came over.
I missed her.

Scout

is a cute dog.

I love the jersey shore.

Got to go beat up this beat.
Goodnight.

I'm tired.

Goodnight.

My Day.

Today I woke up, got dressed, and ready.
Then I watched the movie Better Off Dead.
It's a classic.
The car John Cusack drives in it is my dad's dream car.
I think it's a 1967 camaro.

Then after that I went shopping with my mom. We went to valley thrift in Ohio. I bought a pair of heels, a shirt, a skirt, a purse, a game, and some weird kitchen thing my mom wanted. That shoe is similar to the pair I bought. But mine are vintage. They have that look to them, you know? Plus, mine are solid gold, just one color.

We got drinks at sonic also. I usually get a sprite with grape and lime. It's a weird combination, but it tastes good. I used to get dr. pepper with cherry and vanilla. Sonic has really good drinks.

Then my mom made me go to this ghost mall with her. We spotted a Guess store that was going out of business so we hit that shit up. I found so much cute stuff. I ended up getting a skirt and a sweater. My mom got a purse and wallet. We both got super good deals.

Then we went to a bath and body works outlet store. They had all these discontinued scents. My favorite was there, so my mom got me a spray. Yay. If I could think of what it was called, I would tell you, but I can't remember off the top of my head.

After that, we went to the grocery store and bought coffee creamer. That was boring.

Then we went and ate at this mexican place. It was so good. The salsa was some of the best salsa I've ever had. So fresh. Then we shared some flan. I haven't had that in forever. The last time I had it, is when I made it myself at home.

I organized my sock drawer tonight. I'm going to have to buy some new socks. I only like long socks and I hardly have any left. So lame.

Goodnight.

Hello.

I'm currently reading Lullaby, then I'm going to start Push.
I like reading, but I always feel like there's never enough time in the day.
Plus, I read actual books. I don't read any of that twilight shit.
I like to read books that make you think.
I like to read books that make you say, "What the fuck!?"

I organized all my papers and folders tonight.
It makes me feel less stressed.
I got a backpack for Christmas and put my puppy in it.
She loved it.
This picture is kind of small and awkward, but you can see how funny she is.
She's insanely spoiled and I'm sure she'll want more rides in the backpack.


My dad bought these cook books that tells you how to make your favorite dish from various restaurants.
Everything that my family has made from it so far has been delicious. Tastes exactly like the real things.
He made chicken scampi from olive garden.
The sauce is vegetarian, so they just leave the chicken out of mine.
That was always my favorite food from olive garden, but since I'm vegetarian and olive garden's version contains chicken stock, I choose to not eat it.
He also made this other pasta dish and it was so good.
Then he made bugers that are supposed to taste like sonic hamburgers. My parents said they tasted dead on. That's cool, I guess. My mom made some kind of salad dressing. It was good, it was just different.

That's all I've got for now.
Goodnight.

What do you think makes a happy family?

Acceptance.

It is cold outside. I hate that so much.I have to wake up early tomorrow. I woke up early today to get ready for work, but they ended up not needing me. I felt so bad when I went to bed. I'm pretty sure something is wrong with me. It sucks. I can't remember a time when I woke up and thought "Wow, I feel good today." I am always sick and it sucks really bad.

I think I'm going to go thrifting this weekend.
Who knows?

My hands feel dry. I'm going to put some lotion on them.

I think I might join netflix. I'm not sure though. I don't watch tv very often, so it might be a waste of money. I just never have enough hours in the day.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
-Marilyn Monroe

What do you think makes a good friend?

Someone who is always there for you, no matter what.

I went to trader's world today. I bought this vintage ring. It's really cool. That's a picture of one that is similar. Mine's not as shiney. I don't know why, but I've been watching mtv lately. Right now I'm watching True Life:I'm Deaf. It's kind of hard to watch. It makes me feel guilty for taking something so common for granted.The boy on it is so cute and precious. It's really interesting. I'm going to bed.

It's a new year.

It's January 1st,2010. As I am typing this, it is 2:07 am.
First off, I'll tell you what I got for Christmas.

• A dress and sweater from forever 21
• Rainboots
• Earrings
• Necklaces
• Hats, Gloves, and Scarfs
• Macy's Giftcard
• Belt
• Bubble Bath/Lotion Gift Set
• 2 Sets of Pajamas
• A wallet
• Urban Outfitters giftcard
• Delia's Giftcard
• 3 Pairs of leggings/tights
• Hello Kitty watch
• 3Chuck Palahniuk books
• 2 pairs of slip-on vans
• Black faux leather jacket
• Express giftcard
• Starbuck's giftcard
• Jewelry box
• Heated blanket
• Underwear from Victoria's Secret
• Victoria's Secret Scrub, Lotion, Spray
• Back pack
• Marilyn Monroe painting
• 3 shirts
• A cd

It was a good Christmas.
Anyways, I'm currently reading Lullaby by Chuck Palahniuk.
I still have a crush on Macaulay Culkin. He's a babe.

I attended a shindig on new year's eve.
It was quite fun.

Tomorrow I am going to trader's world. I have never been and I am really looking forward to that. I'm hoping to find some vintage rings. I miss wearing rings.

I keep painting my nails all these crazy colors. I love it. You can never go wrong with nail polish.
I want to go shoe shopping soon.

I keep forgetting it's 2010. It feels so weird. I remember when it was 1999, turning 2000.
Y2K? Remember that shit?

It's cold outside, and snowing. I hate that.
I'm going to bed now.
This is the start to an awesome life.